its so fucking screwed up i want to just scream and get out .

i can't stand it anymore .

i have many other things to worry about and i don't need all these small issues added on .

stop adding stress on me . stop giving me emotional stuff .

i can't take it . i really can't .

i need to scream , i really do . i have been tolerating a whole lot this year and i can't take it.

the tears just keep flowing. hot, angry, frustrated tears. tears of sadness that you can't get me .

i can't stop crying . i just can't .

i need to get away . i need to know i can. i need to study alone .

i need to study without interruptions , i can't now .

and i don't even think i can make it . and i don't want to not make it .

holy high's 50th anniversary !

( i feel like i've accomplished alot grabbing this from the web and putting it here ) :)

sorry , i'm a full blast IT retard. 

dearest friends ! 

holy high ends school at 12pm on friday .

( in case you live under a rock, its teachers' day )

and if you wanna visit, its at punggol park.

 i seriously do NOT understand why the snap its there, but yeah. 

so , if you're going back this friday, please chiong back like crazy ! 

 

p/s call/text me when you have arrived !

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY ! :)

went for the parade itself with my cousin today ! 

it was kinda fun , but after ystd's OC , today's really small scale . hahaha .

i made new friends ! with the 2 girls sitting next to me . eldora and ... oops .

shall upload the pics sometime soon ! :)

BEIJING OLYMPICS OC ! :)

zomgxzxzzxz ! it was DA BOMB ! 

to all those who think that china sucks and are totally against the chinese , so kiss _____ ass ! 

the chinese totally rocked the whole world man ! 

everyone , i mean everyone is talking abt ystd's OC .

i think its safe to say it was the best , the grandest , the most magnificent OC everrrrr !  :)

i'm so happy for them ! :)

i mean like they came through all that criticism and protests and the world turning against them so well ! 

they REALLY kick ass man ! :)

go en chine ! 

seriously , to those people who are themselves chinese but totally hate chinese and the culture and whatnot should totally feel damned ashamed , not just bcos of the OC .

but because majority of the people on earth respect their roots and love their culture and you are the only ones who don't feel proud about it .

i mean look around you , most malays , indians and eurasians treasure their culture so much and its us chinese that keep grumbling about how much we hate being chinese .

its detrimental for not just future generations , but also the culture itself .

once it does out , there's no reviving it anymore .

and its gonna be damn stupid if the rest of the world ( usa , england ) start to embrace the chinese culture and love it when we are cutting ourselves away from it .

cause in the end , you're gonna be the ones who look like idiots .

MY FAVOURITE FLOWER .

today's KATHLEEN'S SEXY SEVENTEENTH ! :)

we met early in the morning (like always) to do up the board and get the cake from rachel(koh).

i miss you rachel koh ! come to choir more often !

so we gave kat the sunflower , board , cake and cat pencil and the happy box ! 

of which contents will be shown in later posts , with the pics and all .

kat had so much to carry and it was a pity she had to rush off for bio SPA . :(

and i missed her hug ! :( its alright , i'm getting an XL hug tmr ! :)

kat is so adorable !

happy birthday kat ! :)

oh ! let me tell you the promise we made to each other !

1) we'll always love each other no matter what happens i.e fights and whatnot

2) we'll always go home with each other even if we fight . 156 ftw !

3) we'll always be there for each other , rain , shine or thunderstorm .

- so far -

I LOVE YA'LL TILL the END OF TIME ! :) 

oh , something happened today that kinda pissed me off .

oh well , somethings are inevitable but i still must whine . hahaha .

outing this saturday with choo and the rest . 

i'm really edgy this week , i don't know why .

have been tolerating , haven't screamed at anyone yet .

i don't normally do , i just tolerate and explode when i meet ppl i can whine to .

so if i do snap at you , you must be INTOLERABLE . 

i'm afraid of time and what it would do to my life . 

i'm really really scared . 

i don't want my life to be altered in any way at all .

i'm afraid time would take my loved ones away from me .

i don't know how to deal with loss .

i feel alot of sadness and frustration right now .

i want to fight against time .

but like the prayer that was read last week , our bank clears the accounts and sets a new one up everyday .

i want time to stand still .

i want to keep everyone with me .

if anything happens , i want to fall into strong arms because i know i will break down .

the being up there , please bless my family members with good health .

i don't want to lose anyone at all .

HI MUSICAL !

(this is overdue too)

this is our ten picture snap ! hahaha .

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ms tbc and us ! :)

my babes have grown !
we rock the toilets in HI ! :)
mr tong ! i miss floorball !
my lovely choir juniors (half of them)
smallie ! i'll always be here for you !

please grow more ! 
babe , you sang so well ! 

i'm proud of you ! love much ! :)
edwin , you surprise me . :)

OVERWHELMED MUCH

have you ever felt so overwhelmed by everything that's happening in such a short time ?

i'm feeling all that now .

i don't know if its because i'm lethargic or because i'm pms-ing ,

but i'm emotionally drained as well .

and thank god no one has said anything to piss me off yet , 

cos i feel like i'm having a dormant temper ready to erupt .

in times like these , the immediate group of people who comes to my mind is the B.C .

seriously , college life without them is so much more mundane .

oh , now we meet every morning at the borner too .

its helps brighten up my day significantly . 

I LOVE YA"LL !

we're like a bunch of kids when go out . :)

oops !

anyhow's , further updates on my current INTERESTING life .

so hyped out about it ! (i wish)

Gong and i got sabo-ed into going for the bhangra aerobics thingy .

hahaha , its much fun though ! :)

we dance and jump and hop like mad !

cj people , you'll get what we mean soon .

we're gonna WALK all the way to CCAB then DANCE there . 

Rachel and Gabriel dance together as

 a partner . hahaha , hilarious !

i love rach , she's been doing everything with me lately .

bhangra and floor-ball and *ahem skipping *ahem choir .

oh well , we had a valid reason !

oh ! and they played my favourite song when i was playing floorball , i felt like a superhero . 

who can't fly ..

oh and we stayed a little while for Alfresco night ! which was kinda cool . :)

cj is so darn good at this man .

after waiting for zhao's supposedly 5 seconds , ros and zhao arrived in a taxi to save guanling ! :)

yay ! i went for SG10's outing . love much !

we finally met up and reminisced about our pre-u sem days .

the days of freedom and 6 meals a day luxuries . :)

(OOPS ! i haven't blogged bout it yet ! :/)

SG10 is so darn cute ! 

i saw lizard after so long , ros , zhao , charm , becks , may , llyod , jo and liz !

i miss that girl lots ! :)

and i have a surprise for her ! SOON BABE !

then we went to the mac's at King Albert Park's macdonad .

seriously , i thought KAP was a park . i mean like who would think its a building ?

and zhao , being zhao laughed at me .  

OH ! and its the biggest-test mac i'm ever seen ! :)

so darn cool man . hahaha . 

i shall go there again next time ! 

I HEART SG10 !